I spoke with Marleen and vocalized my feelings to her…again…and this time, she told me that she realized that she was going to lose me if she didn’t change the errors of her ways.
She exclaims that she is realizing that I am the only one that she wants and she swore to me up and down that she is not cheating me…for the first time…I really believe her. She had tears welling up in her eyes as she told that she loved me and wanted to be the mother of my children.
I have never really had any proof that she was cheating on me…only a gut feeling, but even though we have all been told in life to “go with your instincts”…,my instincts don’t have any proof, and for all I know I am excusing a woman who loves me that she is unfaithful.
Letting her go just because she is distant sometimes may not be a good thing for me, and I may regret it for the rest of my life.
I just want to be in a marriage where I can love, respect, and trust the woman…ALWAYS!!! I am really hoping and wishing that I can start to trust her…afterall, I really have no reason not too!!! I feel a little relieved of this because I already bought the ring!
